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i need to stop

Sat Feb 21, 2009, 5:40 PM

being the person i have been for as long as i can remember. it can't be healthy. it sure as hell isn't productive. the world is no place for hopes and dreams. perhaps i ought to rephrase. the world is no place for ugly girls' hopes and dreams; girls like me are allowed to be self sufficient and alone and really that should be enough.

it's not.

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~Titoalba Feb 21, 2009, 6:20:57 PM

I know what you mean and I've been dwelling on that a lot since Valentine's Day. Things keep coming up to remind me of it every time I manage to get my mind on other things.

As if I don't think my future is bleak enough already, now I've found myself facing the reality of the fact that I can't even look forward to seeing my dreams made into reality, whether the structure of the world survives long enough for me to reach 20 or not. I mean, what guy is out there looking for a short, ugly, slightly overweight Gothic Christian? I sure as heck can't think of any.

Anyway, you can just ignore me and my mindless ranting.

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

Maybe if you find happiness it'll give me a bit of a morale boost too. Assuming my low self esteem issues don't get in the way.

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Child of Christ, cleansed by His blood.

2 Timothy 3:1-5

~callItaRitual Feb 22, 2009, 9:51:36 AM

brittney, you are beautiful. and brilliant, and fun, and entertaining, and incredibly out-going. finding someone is down right impossible, plus you have to be careful who you find because the whole relationship could hurt a thousand times more than not having anybody. take your time lady (:

~austheke Feb 22, 2009, 3:40:58 PM

_{"girls like me are allowed to be self sufficient and alone."

break
the
rules.

Any guy who's worth it will break the rules for you.

(Also, the world objects. It wants to say "you're beautiful".)}

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~007-FleetingPassions Feb 22, 2009, 4:02:31 PM

i tell myself that it all works out for everyone eventually, but god i hate to lie.

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～区秉明～

~007-FleetingPassions Feb 22, 2009, 4:03:02 PM

i have been taking my time for many years now. thank you for your words.

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～区秉明～

~007-FleetingPassions Feb 22, 2009, 4:03:17 PM

one can hope.

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～区秉明～

~Titoalba Feb 22, 2009, 6:58:47 PM

Yeah... but I guess if things could work out for people like my mom, my aunt and my cousin, it might work out okay for me. ...Might. That's what I try to convince myself of, anyway.

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Child of Christ, cleansed by His blood.

2 Timothy 3:1-5

~austheke Feb 23, 2009, 6:49:57 AM

-patpat-

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